It’s 7:30am, I woke at 6am for the morning ritual involving what everyone’s morning ritual is. Adequate sleep, still pretty darn calm, and the countdown timer is marking the hours. 22:30 minutes and counting before they push liquid into my veins and ask me to count down from 100. Why 100? You never get beyond…… Continue reading Tick, tick, tick, tick
Month: November 2015
Becoming
On the escalator Bag checked Boarding pass in hand Waiting A little boy Dreams of change Magical contraptions Abracadabra Dawning light Body clean Inside, Outside, Ready, set, go! Transforming A young man Wonders what Girls feel How they are Different Order becomes disorder Genesis becomes chaos All is rearranged Until order is Reasserted Father dreams…… Continue reading Becoming
Let me sleep on it
So holy moly, it’s Saturday and I leave for the airport in less than 24 hours. In less than 48 hours I’m being wheeled into surgery and “donor material” starts the transformation into “lady garden”. Wow. I really should be more freaked. Just nervous a bit. I’m putting my energy today into cleaning up. I’ve…… Continue reading Let me sleep on it
Final Countdown
There’s definitely a phenomena that shows up when we are waiting for an event to happen. Time slows as we approach the event, like Zeno’s paradox where you can only split the distance between you and your goal by half each time. You can get very close but never quite arrive. The flip side is…… Continue reading Final Countdown
Preparations
The question comes, “how long have you been planning this” and I think, how do I answer? I have many answers: Well, for three months since I got a date from the surgeon’s office Definitely decided to not hold off once we decided to not remain married It was also something I wanted from the…… Continue reading Preparations
Look not to others
When I started on my journey I would hear the term “True Self” with derision. After all, I was who I was and I might change but my core would stay the same, right? Then months went past and the persona I had as a man was clearer to me. It was clear that was…… Continue reading Look not to others
Happiness
What does it mean to be happy? Can you bottle and sell happiness or is it ephemeral, observable or invisible, measurable or not? Is there a sure recipe to find it and if there were, why are there so many unhappy people in the world? I sure don’t know the recipe. They say money doesn’t…… Continue reading Happiness
My Gifted Life 