My prior incarnation, D, tended to be pretty argumentative. This was at its worse with people who were close to me. My therapist feels I was keeping them at a distance, and honestly, that might be a good explanation. I’d add that my interactions with my father growing up pushed me to defend my positions…… Continue reading Escaping the Past
Month: December 2015
Christmas and Hair?
I was sitting in a friend’s living room yesterday. She and her daughter welcomed me into their beautiful apartment having saved me from spending Christmas alone. Even though I’m Jewish, Christmas has been important in my life for more than thirty years. For a variety of not very mysterious reasons I’m not welcome with my…… Continue reading Christmas and Hair?
Darkest Night
The solstice spells a dream of peace Dark cold nights; all cares cease Time the druids saw rebirth Time to start the pagan mirth Warm the halls with holly boughs Packed away all cares and woes Bright the log upon the hearth Kindled then all smiles and mirth Sing your songs and raise a glass…… Continue reading Darkest Night
Six and a half weeks
It hasn’t been long since surgery, but six and going on seven weeks have seen huge changes. Healing of course, the swelling going down, sensation returning at a slow pace, the quelling of over sensitivity. At this point the only pain I feel is working the current largest dilator into place. Perhaps I need to…… Continue reading Six and a half weeks
Growing up
When I was around eleven, my parents, probably my dad, enrolled me in a Karate school. It was Okinawan style if I remember right. I had been getting beaten up from time to time in middle school, I don’t think there had been a good reason other than my being a fairly perfect victim. Then…… Continue reading Growing up
Love Lost
Along the moonlit shore I walk Tide and flotsam coat the sand Looking back at what I had Walking hand in hand Once we rolled in midnight joy Heaven blessed us with a girl To raise mid love and laughter Grown into a pearl Yet now we walk on separate paths Quiet now defines our…… Continue reading Love Lost
Depression
Not a happy title, but depression is not the same as sadness. I know from trying to explain it that like the sighted person explaining the color blue to a blind friend, depression is hard to fathom if you haven’t experienced it. Nor is depression just one specific mental issue as the reasons and triggers…… Continue reading Depression
Male perception
What up with this? I’ve come out to lots of people, in my personal life, my community and my work life. With few exceptions, the people who have the most issues coping with the idea of transition, or more recently surgery, are men. Generally women are not threatened. In a prior entry I talked about some…… Continue reading Male perception
Hair, and one month and one week
It’s been five and one half weeks, also known as one month + one week past the surgery. The healing incisions on the breast augmentation are sometimes irritated if I wear an underwire bra – it’s kind of a conflict since that’s much of what I own and they do a good job supporting the…… Continue reading Hair, and one month and one week
What is gender dysphoria
The underlying issue for someone who is trans is labelled as gender dysphoria these days. Before it was labelled “gender identity disorder”, but there was a fair amount of discomfort with the word “disorder” since it implies something awry. Personally I think it is reasonable to say that there is a general norm that genetics,…… Continue reading What is gender dysphoria
My Gifted Life 