I’ve had a long standing pain issue with dilation. It started pretty early. I had great optimism that second week when I started because it was painless but pretty soon that changed. I’ve grown to understand that my key issue has been scarring and a fissure. The scarring formed a band around the vaginal opening…… Continue reading SRS dilation followup
Month: July 2016
Camera Obscura
I am an old, old woman. I live by myself, with my body barely working in a little one room house my husband built years ago. It was back before Adams was president I think. Now with Lincoln in the White House and the country all in pieces they say, well I don’t think I’ll…… Continue reading Camera Obscura
Behold Beauty
True beauty within the craggy face The glow of ancient eyes Belies the light within You see the young girl fulfilled All glorious with the completeness Of a soul unchained Filled to the brim Sees the morning light Glows with compassion for the people Who gather at her feet, Earth mother They cry and receive…… Continue reading Behold Beauty
SRS Diary 7/22/16
Note to people who don’t want to hear about surgery, vaginas, scar tissue, dilators, etc. Please go look elsewhere. This will be TMI, you have been warned. First, a little retrospective. I had surgery to feel more aligned and comfortable with my body. Safety in public situations was there and has unfortunately felt even more…… Continue reading SRS Diary 7/22/16
Betrayed by a bit of lace
I was sitting in a chair at Bare Minerals getting made up to try one of their foundations. I’m making the woman who’s doing the make up and another customer laugh. I told the beautician O that I had been to see some one who treats folks like me well, and I knew she knew.…… Continue reading Betrayed by a bit of lace
Hell on Earth
The second of the pair At the sight of the elders The young men laugh at their stooped shoulders and their canes They ridicule their slow gate The wrinkles they have earned See only the outer skin And not the sweet person within The family visits three times a year Each time the children are…… Continue reading Hell on Earth
The Elysium Fields
First of two coupled poems The young children sit At the feet of the sage Drink in the wisdom The wisdom of age The gifted are held With soft loving hands Their prophesies heard Lend meaning to plans The young men they dance The young women to They care not who couples With whom and…… Continue reading The Elysium Fields
07/18/2016
When all else fails there’s always the date. No clever title, no great insight, just some insight from looking back over the past 28 months I’ve been living full time. Three years on hrt in October. I past my four year anniversary of coming out this past April. We work very hard to transition, some…… Continue reading 07/18/2016
Hair B Gone
One of the sad realities of being transgender is that which is cool as a guy is decidedly not as a girl. Most specifically body hair and facial hair. While not unheard of, facial hair in women in an untreated state has been relegated to the circus tent. Although one does wonder how many of…… Continue reading Hair B Gone
Understanding – too late?
Some time ago when I was starting the process, but before I started transitioning, our daughter was living with us. She and I, who used to get along rather well got along rather poorly. She told her mother that I was basically not the same person and when I heard that I was so damaged…… Continue reading Understanding – too late?
My Gifted Life 