When I was a girl, I played with the boys, Cops and robbers and all the boy’s toys When I was a girl, My hair was not long, I would have liked dresses how I felt wrong Some dreams don’t happen I thought with a sigh I was a girl, but I hid inside, I…… Continue reading When I was a Girl
Month: December 2016
Living in a work zone
I live downtown in a city. I was a suburban child with occasional forays into New York City. My mom would take me with her to see her sister (one of many, but the only local one) and we’d ride the commuter rail into Grand Central station. We would stop by Fannie Farmer and I’d…… Continue reading Living in a work zone
Diamonds are forever
It really is a great slogan. Especially for something that is coming from a monopoly. It’s hard to say what the actual free market price of a diamond would be if De Beers didn’t control the supply. It is also a fairly recent phenomena that dictated diamond engagement rings. (see https://www.gemsociety.org/article/are-diamonds-really-rare/ for one discussion) Of course…… Continue reading Diamonds are forever
The road to HRT (part 4)
(Gosh I can’t count. Part four) As summer approached things kept moving along. I found that in order to feel better I needed to spend more and more time as Rachel. Going to work in male mode felt more and more burdensome. I was out to some close friends and started to be able to do…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 4)
The road to HRT (part 3)
Now all this time I was incredibly conflicted. I wanted to have HRT and transition, but I wanted my family and the two weren’t so compatible. In addition, as a couple we went through some awful times as she struggled. I remember when I first realized I was playing with fire by trying to contain…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 3)
The road to HRT (part 2)
As things we not getting solved with art and music, as well as some journaling and whatever else I could think of that would ease things without making any changes, it was time to start the train back up. The next stop was to try cross dressing at home. This was a little tricky since…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 2)
The road to HRT (part 1)
At the beginning of this journey in April 2012 I came out to my rabbi and wife. After some initial therapy with a general therapist my doctor wanted me to see a psycho sexual therapist, i.e. someone who would be comfortable and competent at assessing me. About six weeks after I came out, and probably…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 1)
SRS Followup
SRS can have a range of complications, although most of the common ones are fairly minor issues. There are a few complications that people justifiably are scared of because they can make your life anything from a short term misery to something long lasting. A lot of us end up with one or more incisions…… Continue reading SRS Followup
Living with Depression
Most days I do fairly well and I manage to stay reasonably motivated and even legitimately cheerful. I don’t struggle to work, to concentrate or with insomnia. Most days. I’m like a lot of people with clinical depression who are being successfully treated with medication and who have tried to remove stress and conflict from…… Continue reading Living with Depression
La Vie est Belle
Life is beautiful. The question came up on Quora, what does la vie est belle mean. The answer given by many was the affirmation of life, the celebration of success, and the recognition of the inherent hope and goodness of life. Now I’m a speaker of French albeit not a native speaker and I don’t…… Continue reading La Vie est Belle
My Gifted Life 