I remember the words, words I’ve seen echoed in questions I’ve answered. I told my rabbi that I could never be a real woman, something similar to my therapist.
They told me you can be close enough.
I’m telling you, close enough is good enough.
It really is true, most doctors can’t tell the results of SRS from a natal vulva. Lots of men have gone to bed with trans women never the wiser (I always advise honesty, but just saying).
But as I was standing there that wasn’t the image I had in mind. It was this 360 degree picture of my male body with some female traits tacked on. It was the crudest idea of SRS.
The irony was that I had spent the previous dozen years researching HRT and SRS and I knew what I was thinking was false, but somehow I thought that I was the exception. That for ME it wouldn’t work right.
Further I just KNEW that everyone would not only fail to support me but that they would ridicule me and think me a fool.
The impetuosity of youth.
I was no exception.
Sure I lost some friends but to date not a single person has ever mocked me, at least not to my face.
Most people honored me for being courageous,
And somehow SRS worked for me too…..
To all my sisters struggling with the pain of taking that first step.
Take it, take it.
To thine own self be true.
My Gifted Life 