I’d like to starts with the hard stuff so I leave you with some more positive messages. As these years have gone by it has become more and more apparent how deep my losses have been. Not everyone’s go this deep and some go deeper. I’ve seen outright rejection, usually in a non-confrontational way. I’ve…… Continue reading Reflections on four years full time
Month: February 2018
Corners
Heavy is the hand that holds The cool hard marble stone In its surface there is shows Each path traveled, battle won In her mien no joy is there For all the victories Just a quiet grim affair Between her and memory Once the halls thronged with those Who called this place their home Now…… Continue reading Corners
Mourning Music
For as long as I can remember I’ve made music. It started with clarinet in grammar school, piano in high school, guitar in college and somewhere along the line my voice became good enough to listen to. Other than clarinet I was self taught, and therefore my musical education was spotty in places but it…… Continue reading Mourning Music
Scare
I spent much of the last week in a terribly depressed state, nearly suicidal at times. I was also puzzled as well as being in psychic pain as my depression had been in good control. Not to say I was always cheerful, but I was able to function well. Suddenly I wasn’t and I was…… Continue reading Scare
Empty
Quiet windows and closed doors Quiet stairways, empty floors Still the ghosts of past memories flow Empty cupboards remember when Darling child’s laughter’s spin Those days may never come ever again Cold outside the snowflakes fall Empty rooms and empty halls Lonely without heart and home so dear Still to find the new green grass…… Continue reading Empty
First Event 2018
This last weekend was First Event, the first transgender event of the year. FE is, like most such events attended by both trans women and men as well as cross dressers and the occasional person who’s bordering on drag (or even just in drag). The cross dressers used to bother me some, but now it…… Continue reading First Event 2018
My Gifted Life 