It’s 7:30am, I woke at 6am for the morning ritual involving what everyone’s morning ritual is. Adequate sleep, still pretty darn calm, and the countdown timer is marking the hours. 22:30 minutes and counting before they push liquid into my veins and ask me to count down from 100. Why 100? You never get beyond…… Continue reading Tick, tick, tick, tick
Category: Current
Let me sleep on it
So holy moly, it’s Saturday and I leave for the airport in less than 24 hours. In less than 48 hours I’m being wheeled into surgery and “donor material” starts the transformation into “lady garden”. Wow. I really should be more freaked. Just nervous a bit. I’m putting my energy today into cleaning up. I’ve…… Continue reading Let me sleep on it
Happiness
What does it mean to be happy? Can you bottle and sell happiness or is it ephemeral, observable or invisible, measurable or not? Is there a sure recipe to find it and if there were, why are there so many unhappy people in the world? I sure don’t know the recipe. They say money doesn’t…… Continue reading Happiness
Reawakening
The years have past like stately trees Along the moonlit drive Each one brought new joys and fears and sometimes also cries The last ones now have seen the best and the worst of all The journey took from A to Z and trying not to fall The magic day, the dawn so bright it…… Continue reading Reawakening
The End of Transition
The day comes at last when you realize that it has been months since you’ve needed to really think about living as you now are. The glamour has worn off, the new has become the mundane. This is not to say that life is not so much better, it most certainly is because you no…… Continue reading The End of Transition
SRS
Variously known as sex reassignment surgery, gender confirmation surgery and (to my mind) erroneously as gender reassignment surgery, the surgery to transform one’s genitalia from male to female or vice versus is often the holy grail sought by the transsexual transitioner. There are many gatekeepers to pass to reach that place: If nothing else, it…… Continue reading SRS
The Gift That Keeps on Giving
Back in July I was in Philadelphia to see two surgeons about SRS. On my first day their I arrived early enough that I thought it worthwhile to head into town and see some historical sites. I parked at what looked like a valid spot. There was a kiosk nearby and there are these little…… Continue reading The Gift That Keeps on Giving
Losing Gracefully
The journey isn’t a fast ride down a froth filled river of cold water. There are hazards, but they approach in a more leisurely pace than submerged boulders or icebergs at sea. The dangers are seen and unseen but have to do with finding happiness. Somewhere at the start of my journey a friend warned…… Continue reading Losing Gracefully
Flowering
Long time the seed is nurtured there, Beneath the soil with hope and care. Watered well and planted right, It waits the day to seek the light The seasons change, the seasons turn, Ages change a love that yearns, To hold again a loved one near, Remembering the warmer years At last the sun is…… Continue reading Flowering
Another Petal Falls
The call was made a few days ago after some days of procrastination. It wasn’t that I dreaded it, but first I had been ill and then I was still getting over it, but at last I needed to make the call. I couldn’t stand my mobile phone staring at me with an accusing glow…… Continue reading Another Petal Falls
My Gifted Life 