Sometimes we pretend to have no regrets in taking the extreme steps we’ve needed to take to live and hopefully prosper. These thoughts come to me in a bit of a funk — par for the course between depression and Parkinson’s. I think my transition has been very successful. I think little about my gender…… Continue reading Regrets
Category: Current
Here I go ride in my car car
My old car was 14 years old with 170,000 miles. I had certainly gotten my money’s worth out of the Toyota Camry, reliable beast, starting every day cold or hot. Never stranded, not even a sudden flat. I decided it was time to replace it and send it to that great part yard in the…… Continue reading Here I go ride in my car car
Weed all grown up
Some of you may wonder how the pot turned out. It turns out that I’m not a great judge so I used a friend and he declared it pretty good. So I must have done something right. The end game of growing pot is mostly waiting for all the buds to bud, which takes many…… Continue reading Weed all grown up
A Tough few days
I know I’ve written a few times about depression and my battle with it. I’m running through another tough spot where I can’t get comfortable for much of the day. I’m trying to distract myself as much as possible. I’m getting some relief from cannabis and the odd hit of scotch but there’s a limit…… Continue reading A Tough few days
Anxiety
Closely related to depression. I’ve had a not so fun few days with a great deal of anxiety. I have a theory that it’s due to my not keeping a good schedule on my meds. We’ll see. Generally, in the greater time scale I’m doing pretty well. My problems are ordinary and don’t depress me,…… Continue reading Anxiety
Growing Weed
I’ve taken to using medical marijuana to help with Parkinson’s, depression and anything else that might get caught up and helped. Unfortunately it isn’t exactly covered by insurance. Here in Mass it’s legal for both recreational and medical use though and I’m able to grow my own. I’ve always been an avid DIY sort and…… Continue reading Growing Weed
Wrapping our lives with meaning
Ah, I struggle with this. I fear to be lying in a bed with a morphine drip waiting to pass, and thinking of what might have been. I write this having already worked a career—you’d think that would be enough. But it isn’t enough because there are ( I hope ) some good years left…… Continue reading Wrapping our lives with meaning
Living in a state of gratitude
Oh, I have my days. Days I don’t want to smile or get out of bed, put away dishes and hardly want to make the effort of getting food for sustenance. We all do, short sighted days where our lives consist of a small box and we’re sitting in a small corner kicking our heels…… Continue reading Living in a state of gratitude
First Event 2018
This last weekend was First Event, the first transgender event of the year. FE is, like most such events attended by both trans women and men as well as cross dressers and the occasional person who’s bordering on drag (or even just in drag). The cross dressers used to bother me some, but now it…… Continue reading First Event 2018
Happiness is a warm brunch
It had been too long. Before this Sunday past (1/14/18) I had last seen my daughter before my SRS, my sister and brother in law right after and my cousin S and his wife B about six years ago. The second cousin R I stayed with and her sister D were probably close to a…… Continue reading Happiness is a warm brunch
My Gifted Life 