Charlottesville

Will this be the opening shot of a war that goes down in history? One against the vile ideas of another time that these hateful people that Donald Trump’s america has rebranded as the alt-right. The ‘alt-right’ because it sells better than the former brand ‘White Supremacist’. Trump knows all about branding. I don’t care…… Continue reading Charlottesville

Squeezable Me

I was feeling like an over squeezed tube of toothpaste at one point. However, let us go back to the start. I was seeing my endocrinologist and along with the sticker for being a good girl who didn’t cry (I wanted a blue one even those she said pink is for girls, but *I* wanted…… Continue reading Squeezable Me

Facades

We all have one. We use it daily, hiding behind a pleasant smile or a dull mask. A rictus that never changes like Kelly Ann Conway’s, or perhaps a sad clown face. some wear their hearts on their sleeves and we all do time to time. Not all joys and woes are truly containable within…… Continue reading Facades

Pain, Struggles and Tears

I ran into a friend, a lovely person with one of the greatest jobs in the world. Not an easy one. She commented how open I was here on my blog and I have been with information on transition and my struggles with identity and sexuality. I don’t think I’ve kept a whole lot back.…… Continue reading Pain, Struggles and Tears

Dating Men (part 2)

I was sitting in a cafe sipping my iced mocha. Being a nervous sort I had overdressed and over made up. It was a sort of armor. I calmed down while waiting on the worn out love seat I had grabbed by the window. Pretty much spot on the dot my date came in sort…… Continue reading Dating Men (part 2)

TERF partie le deuxième

Getting a rant off my chest. I made the mistake of interacting with some of these misanthropic, unconfident excuses for educated human beings and found myself quite disturbed. Let me start with gender studies. In studies at the university level we have the hard sciences such as mathematics, physics, chemistry and biologic as well as…… Continue reading TERF partie le deuxième

Dating Men? (part 1)

Oh dear, so I’ve always intended to try this (gulp) but now here I’ve gone and actually put a profile out there on a paid dating site. Because it’s paid I may get weirdo’s but I’m not getting much of the 20 yr old (or 30 or whatever) scam artists. I originally intended to wait…… Continue reading Dating Men? (part 1)

Starting Over

My count of the ways my life has changed keeps racking up numbers. Transition, parkinsons, increased migraines, continued depression, worsening depression. It keeps going. Transition finally, mostly fell off the list, and soon divorce or legal separation, whatever step we decide, will have happened. Not that this will be happy. I have a deep sad…… Continue reading Starting Over

What it means to be supported

We can be pretty confused human beings when we start our transition. Everything is changing and we want it done now. But it isn’t  something that happens in a month, or a year. It happens over a few years give or take. It depends on the person. I personally think of transition in three parts:…… Continue reading What it means to be supported

Post transition life

Transition can be an exciting time, as well as a very scary one. Your body changes, a great deal like puberty as you transition to living in your target gender, a process that happens quickly from ones presentation, and quite a bit more slowly inside. For many that never ends, but it has slowed way…… Continue reading Post transition life