There are many fine things about being young, robust good health, beauty, and the ease that we take on friends and lovers. Youth feels immortal, like it too will not succumb as we age, always feeling young in our hearts. Youth questions authority and often sneers at institutions like the government or organized religion. However,…… Continue reading Hard Youth
Category: Journey
SRS update @20 months
I’m just a little shy of two years since I had reassignment surgery. While I’m sure that SRS is not for every trans person, it surely has made some profound differences for me. I feel as genuine as one can feel given the circumstances. As I’m sure you understand, it is not possible at this…… Continue reading SRS update @20 months
Othering
I’ve been through this with several different women. They look for reasons that labelling me as a woman is wrong. The arguments are familiar, so I’ll be brief about the arguments and answers. First, I would like my reader (ok my cis gendered reader) to imagine that one could safely have everything below the waist…… Continue reading Othering
My life as a transgender child
The earliest memories I have firmly in my brain start around age 4 or 5. What memories I have from earlier are more glimpses but nothing immersive. I might remember a single scene and there are very, very few of these. Around age 6 or 7 I have this distinct memory of being in a…… Continue reading My life as a transgender child
Reflections on 3+ years post transition
Sometimes our friends are kind to us. Sometimes they don’t want to because they think it won’t be nice. I’ll take kind anyday. That included being told by my wife when I was dressed particularly badly, feedback on my hair being too light. It also included lots of things I should have listened to more…… Continue reading Reflections on 3+ years post transition
Memories 2015 from October to December
Going through from March of 2014 when I went full time to March of 2015 was a hiatus. Things were good at home, but it was a kind of truce. We both knew that once I was eligible for surgery things could change radically. There wasn’t much question in my mind that I wanted the…… Continue reading Memories 2015 from October to December
Cycles of renewal
Everything in life is part of a greater cycle. There are cycle we see like the earth’s turning about its axis, the moon’s orbit or the earth’s trajectory about the sun. We infer and measure others large and small from the vibration of a single electron in the s-orbital of the hydrogen atom, smaller still…… Continue reading Cycles of renewal
The gender police beyond the binary
Visions appear in my minds eye of middle aged librarians peddling furiously to stop tenth grade student Toby Carmichael from calling the sea the neutral it. Men in crisp white shirts ask to see your papers making sure everything is labeled and in order. Suddenly you are stopped at the corner of tenth and main…… Continue reading The gender police beyond the binary
True Selves? A four year consideration
I remember reading people’s blogs and watching vlogs and them talking about their “true selves”. For awhile I wondered what they were talking about. The first year of therapy had me feeling a bit split between male and female characteristics and seeking integration to feel whole. As I transitioned I’d tell people that my old…… Continue reading True Selves? A four year consideration
Memories – 2015 Jan to Oct
At this point I was fairly settled in at work, and P and I were still in the “honeymoon” were no definite decision could be made about SRS. I was still entertaining the notion we could find a way to stay married even if not romantically. There were signs this probably wasn’t practical, but we…… Continue reading Memories – 2015 Jan to Oct
My Gifted Life 