(Gosh I can’t count. Part four) As summer approached things kept moving along. I found that in order to feel better I needed to spend more and more time as Rachel. Going to work in male mode felt more and more burdensome. I was out to some close friends and started to be able to do…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 4)
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The road to HRT (part 3)
Now all this time I was incredibly conflicted. I wanted to have HRT and transition, but I wanted my family and the two weren’t so compatible. In addition, as a couple we went through some awful times as she struggled. I remember when I first realized I was playing with fire by trying to contain…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 3)
The road to HRT (part 2)
As things we not getting solved with art and music, as well as some journaling and whatever else I could think of that would ease things without making any changes, it was time to start the train back up. The next stop was to try cross dressing at home. This was a little tricky since…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 2)
The road to HRT (part 1)
At the beginning of this journey in April 2012 I came out to my rabbi and wife. After some initial therapy with a general therapist my doctor wanted me to see a psycho sexual therapist, i.e. someone who would be comfortable and competent at assessing me. About six weeks after I came out, and probably…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 1)
SRS Followup
SRS can have a range of complications, although most of the common ones are fairly minor issues. There are a few complications that people justifiably are scared of because they can make your life anything from a short term misery to something long lasting. A lot of us end up with one or more incisions…… Continue reading SRS Followup
La Vie est Belle
Life is beautiful. The question came up on Quora, what does la vie est belle mean. The answer given by many was the affirmation of life, the celebration of success, and the recognition of the inherent hope and goodness of life. Now I’m a speaker of French albeit not a native speaker and I don’t…… Continue reading La Vie est Belle
Transgender Faith
I suppose that at heart I’m a theist. It isn’t that I have a traditional image of God as a bearded man with a long flowing beard with a white tunic shouting “Let there be light”. I am amazed to contemplate the complexity and wonder of the universe and question the origins of creation. These…… Continue reading Transgender Faith
The Holidays
This time of the year that brings thoughts of home and hearth, peace and joy can be especially trying for those living by themselves, isolated. There are a lot of reasons this happens, for trans people because people and family have turned away, but it also happens if you outlive your friends and contemporary family…… Continue reading The Holidays
November
The winds blew warm, over hopeful fields The stalks still stood, the harvest yields The cider pressed, it steams in cups With cinnamon sticks, we lap it up Against the cold, that comes so fast November winds, they fly so fast From the East, they smell of sea And snow to come, the dark for…… Continue reading November
Confirmation Bias
This doesn’t sound like it has much to do with being trans, right? I’ll ask for you patience while I explain what it is, and then I’ll say how it affects us. Confirmation bias is the phenomenon where the brain filters information based on a decision. The dictionary definition: The tendency to interpret new evidence…… Continue reading Confirmation Bias
My Gifted Life 