For the first 54 years I lived as a man and honestly many of those were good years. I did a passable imitation of being a guy, at least a relatively non-aggressive guy. I might have had some odd thoughts but I did enjoy having sex and I was attracted to women. That guy had…… Continue reading Phase 3
Category: Journey
Reentry
This morning my alarm woke me and instead of considering turning it off or hitting the sleep timer I got up. I had little choice given how long it takes me to get ready for work and to work I was going this morning after eight weeks of absence. I washed and dressed and made…… Continue reading Reentry
Onward
Along the midnight path she wandered, between the surf and sand. The moon it lit her onward path, she opened up her hand. The moonlight filled the hollow there, all with silver light. Reflecting in her eyes it shone, Lighting up the night. A new found path it lit for her, Away from surf and…… Continue reading Onward
Happy New Year
First and foremost may 2016 be a better year for us all. Life involves change and while not all change may be welcome, it will happen anyway. It remains to us whether we embrace change or fight the losing battle for stasis. For me last year was all about change, and change that remains in…… Continue reading Happy New Year
Escaping the Past
My prior incarnation, D, tended to be pretty argumentative. This was at its worse with people who were close to me. My therapist feels I was keeping them at a distance, and honestly, that might be a good explanation. I’d add that my interactions with my father growing up pushed me to defend my positions…… Continue reading Escaping the Past
Christmas and Hair?
I was sitting in a friend’s living room yesterday. She and her daughter welcomed me into their beautiful apartment having saved me from spending Christmas alone. Even though I’m Jewish, Christmas has been important in my life for more than thirty years. For a variety of not very mysterious reasons I’m not welcome with my…… Continue reading Christmas and Hair?
Growing up
When I was around eleven, my parents, probably my dad, enrolled me in a Karate school. It was Okinawan style if I remember right. I had been getting beaten up from time to time in middle school, I don’t think there had been a good reason other than my being a fairly perfect victim. Then…… Continue reading Growing up
Love Lost
Along the moonlit shore I walk Tide and flotsam coat the sand Looking back at what I had Walking hand in hand Once we rolled in midnight joy Heaven blessed us with a girl To raise mid love and laughter Grown into a pearl Yet now we walk on separate paths Quiet now defines our…… Continue reading Love Lost
Depression
Not a happy title, but depression is not the same as sadness. I know from trying to explain it that like the sighted person explaining the color blue to a blind friend, depression is hard to fathom if you haven’t experienced it. Nor is depression just one specific mental issue as the reasons and triggers…… Continue reading Depression
Male perception
What up with this? I’ve come out to lots of people, in my personal life, my community and my work life. With few exceptions, the people who have the most issues coping with the idea of transition, or more recently surgery, are men. Generally women are not threatened. In a prior entry I talked about some…… Continue reading Male perception
My Gifted Life 