Transitioning at Work

During March 2014 I went full time. Like most transitioning men and women I had transitioned everywhere but work. Work was the scariest place to transition since a disaster there would be hard to recover from. Work would also place the greatest demands to date to be dressed and present appropriately, and determining what appropriate…… Continue reading Transitioning at Work

Reimagined

Longtime hid behind the mask Imagined strips of clay Hiding self and glory dim Waiting for the day Sleep awhile and wake with morn Marvels wait within Sleepy eyes behold new hope Rising without sin Dance around the fairy ring Contra creed and faith Till the magic portal makes A passage to new grace Emerge…… Continue reading Reimagined

Two weeks

Well, two weeks is actually tomorrow morning, but I figured this was close enough. I had my last checkup with Dr. Leis last night and was told I’m healing up well. There are some extremely minor issues that will resolve themselves over time, nothing terribly annoying. Lacking some sin of omission or commission on my…… Continue reading Two weeks

Is it them, or Me??

The areas that hurt most transitioners are losses of family, friends, community and employment. As society gets more accepting these tend to be less of a problem, but it would be the rare trans person who is totally unaffected. Here I want to talk about friends. I can only speak from an MtF viewpoint, I’m…… Continue reading Is it them, or Me??

The true cost of SRS

People live through many good and bad times in their lives. If you are trans, signing up for some type of  reassignment surgery is just one more of these. No one reading my post should think that deciding to get SRS, preparing for it or moving on afterwards is a world of rainbows and unicorns.…… Continue reading The true cost of SRS

One week

It was one week ago I had my surgery. I’m a little under a week from going home. The surgeon, Dr. Leis, told me I’m healing well and can go home next weekend. I did take a look for Saturday flights, but finally decided having another day to recuperate is no bad thing. I’ve had…… Continue reading One week

Day four

Yesterday I was moved to an hotel room from the hospital. I’m able to sleep without anyone checking to make sure I still have a pulse 😳 My sister and her husband are both being extremely wonderful to me. I had a bit of a panic attack yesterday, one should really expect that adjusting to…… Continue reading Day four

Tick, tick, tick, tick

It’s 7:30am, I woke at 6am for the morning ritual involving what everyone’s morning ritual is. Adequate sleep, still pretty darn calm, and the countdown timer is marking the hours. 22:30 minutes and counting before they push liquid into my veins and ask me to count down from 100. Why 100? You never get beyond…… Continue reading Tick, tick, tick, tick

Let me sleep on it

So holy moly, it’s Saturday and I leave for the airport in less than 24 hours. In less than 48 hours I’m being wheeled into surgery and “donor material” starts the transformation into “lady garden”. Wow. I really should be more freaked. Just nervous a bit. I’m putting my energy today into cleaning up. I’ve…… Continue reading Let me sleep on it

Look not to others

When I started on my journey I would hear the term “True Self” with derision. After all, I was who I was and I might change but my core would stay the same, right? Then months went past and the persona I had as a man was clearer to me. It was clear that was…… Continue reading Look not to others