Happiness

What does it mean to be happy? Can you bottle and sell happiness or is it ephemeral, observable or invisible, measurable or not? Is there a sure recipe to find it and if there were, why are there so many unhappy people in the world? I sure don’t know the recipe. They say money doesn’t…… Continue reading Happiness

Reawakening

The years have past like stately trees Along the moonlit drive Each one brought new joys and fears and sometimes also cries The last ones now have seen the best and the worst of all The journey took from A to Z and trying not to fall The magic day, the dawn so bright it…… Continue reading Reawakening

The End of Transition

The day comes at last when you realize that it has been months since you’ve needed to really think about living as you now are. The glamour has worn off, the new has become the mundane. This is not to say that life is not so much better, it most certainly is because you no…… Continue reading The End of Transition

SRS

Variously known as sex reassignment surgery, gender confirmation surgery and (to my mind) erroneously as gender reassignment surgery, the surgery to transform one’s genitalia from male to female or vice versus is often the holy grail sought by the transsexual transitioner. There are many gatekeepers to pass to reach that place: If nothing else, it…… Continue reading SRS

Losing Gracefully

The journey isn’t a fast ride down a froth filled river of cold water. There are hazards, but they approach in a more leisurely pace than submerged boulders or icebergs at sea. The dangers are seen and unseen but have to do with finding happiness. Somewhere at the start of my journey a friend warned…… Continue reading Losing Gracefully

Why a Little is at least Sometimes not enough

You start down the path beset by shame, guilt and maybe even a little anger and resentment. You’re fighting various demons and figuring out not just the gender stuff but teasing it apart from sexual orientation issues. Then the cloud starts to lift a bit. You get introduced to this vision of what life can…… Continue reading Why a Little is at least Sometimes not enough

The Art of Being Gracious

Here’s a subject that I am the world’s least knowledgeable person in. I have spent years doing at best a mediocre job of being gracious and yet, and yet I feel that I’ve started to understand the right thing to do at times. So much boils down to respecting people’s good intent and not having…… Continue reading The Art of Being Gracious

How I felt coming out

For nearly a year, perhaps it was longer, I became more and more fixated on transitioning. At that point I had never dared identify as trans in public, never said a word about how I felt. I felt that if I dared to say I wanted to be a woman that the world would laugh…… Continue reading How I felt coming out

The way back

We find ourselves we know not where In a forest dark and drear And yet the distant star draws near and pulls us toward the lady fair with even locks of fine gold hair that beckon us to move quite near and smell the lavender that grows in the clearing around her The starlight shines…… Continue reading The way back

The Struggle of Loved Ones

No matter what’s going on with an individual with a problem, it isn’t only that person who’s affected. The people near and dear to them are impacted in all sorts of different ways. Routines disrupted, expectations changes, sometimes the end of a relationship or the grief that comes with the end of a life and…… Continue reading The Struggle of Loved Ones