I’m fairly convinced that doing nothing is this best course. My surgeon pointed out there are plenty of sexual thinks to do without a vagina or without one that has the capacity to take a penis. He also warned that regardless of who does a repair that there’s a serious risk of a fistula, hardly…… Continue reading Failure follow up
Category: Journey
A Tough few days
I know I’ve written a few times about depression and my battle with it. I’m running through another tough spot where I can’t get comfortable for much of the day. I’m trying to distract myself as much as possible. I’m getting some relief from cannabis and the odd hit of scotch but there’s a limit…… Continue reading A Tough few days
A Scary Moment
People used to tell me how brave I was for transitioning. I’d poo poo that but there was some truth to it, especially viewing it in retrospect. Transitioning is not for the faint of heart – think carefully if you are contemplating it. One of the most scary moments of my life was the morning…… Continue reading A Scary Moment
On Depression
I’ve mentioned, at least in passing that I suffer from depression. Depression has been a constant companion of sorts as I’ve traversed my journey. Of course it was probably there from the start and barring some amazing advance in the healing arts at the end too. Some years ago my therapist suggested pushing back on…… Continue reading On Depression
The Final Day
It was a sunny day in AugustA call arrived to say my dad didn’t have much time left but not to hurryI dawdled a little because of this and so when I arrived his breathing had already ended A sat with him in his quiet room. His for the last six weeks counting down the…… Continue reading The Final Day
What now?
You’ve struggled. Coming out to friends and family, counting losses, having problems on the job. The world has changed around you. Perhaps you have a different job. Perhaps there’s a new search for new friends having lost the old ones not only due to transphobia but because those guys can’t related to a woman. This…… Continue reading What now?
Transsexual is the word?
I’ve slowly come to the conclusion that I can’t call myself transgender because the term has become too inclusive. Cross dressers and drag queens are often considered transgender. People who have no desire to live in their identified gender are considered transgender. It’s all becoming a madhouse between that and people making up fanciful but…… Continue reading Transsexual is the word?
The Non-Binary Life
Admittedly I’m revisiting this, but maybe I’m allowed to be human and have a rant now and again. Trans folks transition because to alternative is often to remain horribly depressed, gender dysphoric and even suicidal. We have a serious medical condition and we take steps to solve that and pay a huge price for taking…… Continue reading The Non-Binary Life
Masculinity and Femininity
I’m reflecting here on things I’ve read, my current life and my life before all this started. To start with I’ve always wondered at the labels. It seems that the best we can be in this life is ourselves and not force a particular set of values and behaviors. Self confidence in who we are…… Continue reading Masculinity and Femininity
Sometimes the Wonder Takes Me
It was the other night as I lay in bed. The lights were on and I was between watching YouTube videos – a bad habit of mine and now you know! Lying there I was overcome by two feelings. One was feeling as peace and the other was feeling whole. The man that I used…… Continue reading Sometimes the Wonder Takes Me
My Gifted Life 