A Bit of Hope

Something I wrote on Quora two years ago that still lifts my heart. I hope it lifts yours. Let us all be gracious and thankful. The question was what does la vie est belle mean? I’m not French, but I can converse in it. To me la vie est belle is also an answer to…… Continue reading A Bit of Hope

Finding the Long Lost

Sometimes we think back to our youth with longing. What we did and the people we did those things with. We cannot recapture our youth, at least I can’t now that I’m past sixty and my bones are no longer made of rubber nor are my muscles as strong as they used to be. But…… Continue reading Finding the Long Lost

Why People Rarely Change Their Minds

People keep asking this on Quora, presumably out of a morbid fascination of the assumed sense of dread that person would feel. Oh my god what have I done. In fact it would be very dire, and I am truly empathetic for the extremely few people who have managed to get to that position. The…… Continue reading Why People Rarely Change Their Minds

The Old and Vanished

You’re probably like me and have a couple of friends from college you’ve lost touch with. Maybe you’ve thought about reconnecting from time to time. Some might even have tried and I hope you’ve had better luck than me. One I could only find an address for so I sent an actual piece of mail,…… Continue reading The Old and Vanished

Bad Dreams

I don’t know where they come from. Perhaps they’re part of the communal transgender zeitgeist, a pulse we all feel where ever we are like an extended organism. Thrummm, Thrummm, it goes on and it occasionally crossed by a disturbance, a ripple in the fabric. Are these the sources of my anxiety? Is this why…… Continue reading Bad Dreams

Yom Kippur

It’s now a couple of weeks past. It left a better feeling for me, as I had arranged to sit with someone. Planning a little can go a long way. Still, there are these disquieting moments in my life, and  not particularly at temple, where I don’t necessarily feel entirely welcome. Not often but not…… Continue reading Yom Kippur

Do People Ever forgive and forget

Just now when I thought things were basically over, I’ve had another rude awakening. Perhaps it was just about my personality. I can’t take all the info out of this post – those who know me personally in the Jewish community will know where I attend and other details, but I’ll leave those out of…… Continue reading Do People Ever forgive and forget

Less and Less

Doubtless you’ve noticed I post less in this blog than I used to. There’s a fine reason for that, I’m well beyond transition and I just live my life these days. None of the formerly new things are new anymore. Going to the ladies room? was it ever any other way it feels like to…… Continue reading Less and Less

Embodiment

I was sitting on the couch earlier and was feeling quite content. Everything is fitting together, all the parts of my body are there, and it is nice to be shaped the right way. Perfect? Of course not. I should lose forty pounds 🙂 But the vessel I now inhabit feels right for the soul…… Continue reading Embodiment