It really is true, that day by day you live your truth and you and it slowly intertwine. The space grows ever closer until one morning you wake up and find that there’s only you. No other, no seeming division. When I started my journey it would sometimes feel like I had this person Rachel…… Continue reading Trans what?
Category: Journey
On Cis Dating and the Golden Rule
Let’s distinguish two things. It is not, in my opinion, transphobic to not wish to date someone for any personal reason. It might be something as simple, for a male, as wanting natural children and seeing no point in dating someone who cant bear a child. I wouldn’t hold it against them. Refusing to acknowledge…… Continue reading On Cis Dating and the Golden Rule
The Earliest memories of a trans kid
I have dated my earliest memories for the longest time to age six. But I was thinking about it the other day and I realized I had these earlier memories. I was three or so and with my mom shopping in downtown Ossining, NY. We were at Hilliker’s, a small department store on Main St.…… Continue reading The Earliest memories of a trans kid
Vulnerability of a pronoun
(Modified from a Quora answer) I don’t get offended when people accidentally screw up pronouns with me. I even had that discussion today with my eye doctor who was apologizing for my last office visit and I told him it really isn’t a big deal. I’ve been his patient for 20 years and he still…… Continue reading Vulnerability of a pronoun
Gender Expression these days
I’m going on five years this coming Fall on HRT. October 2013 is when I first swallowed a small purple 1mg pill of estradiol and I haven’t stopped since. It reached a peak at 4mg and when back to 2mg after surgery removed the testosterone production equipment. Astonishingly my body still is changing in small…… Continue reading Gender Expression these days
Timelines
Not everyone progresses in a straightforward way from say male to female. There can be hiccups, detransitions, and decisions to go back to the status quo ante for any number of reasons. For example, it is a really common pattern among cross dressers and even some trans individuals to periodically purge. They’ll build up a…… Continue reading Timelines
My First Time as Rachel in Public
My first time in public was at an open air mall. I was probably semi passable, i.e. not terribly, but enough so that I wasn’t harassed or attracting open stares (in my sight!) from passers by. It was early in 2013 and a good nine months before I started HRT. Even though I wasn’t terribly…… Continue reading My First Time as Rachel in Public
Writing
I’ve started writing what I’m told is termed “creative non-fiction”. It’s based on my story but isn’t quite my story. It’s truthful, but details, names and places are changed, and conversations are changed to advance the “plot” as it were. I’m finding the writing process interesting, if not also a bit cathartic. It’s giving me…… Continue reading Writing
How I Waited to Transition
For many years before I came out I not only knew I was transgender but was having some real degree of struggle with it. Over the years I found various coping mechanisms. Early, when I was twenty one I took dance classes in ballet. They allowed that feminine side of me an expression. I wasn’t…… Continue reading How I Waited to Transition
Makeup revisited
My attitudes about makeup keep changing. First it was all about passing. Next it was about work and special events. Then I was mostly forgoing it because I was retired. On to a new phase. These days I regularly sport lipstick when I go out unless I’m just grabbing the mail. I have a few…… Continue reading Makeup revisited
My Gifted Life 