It was the early 90s. I was in my 30s and I’d go to Temple events. After I would sometimes want to help out so I’d go ask someone what I should do. They always looked a bit annoyed but sometimes made a suggestion. Even a polite one. There are layers to being helpful. Asking…… Continue reading Being Helpful
Category: Journey
Happier days
I think I underestimate how corrosive even a single source of stress can be. I know I underestimated how positive finding an activity would be. My stressors were reduced by one – my disability was approved. This was a huge relief, and I finally let out the breath I had been holding in for months.…… Continue reading Happier days
Why I’m Thankful
I’m thankful to wake each morning in a safe sheltered place, far from the violence that haunts so many in this world. My abode keeps me dry and warm or cool regardless of the seasons, and provides a backdrop for me to pursue my activities. I’m thankful to have many people who love me in…… Continue reading Why I’m Thankful
Our Father
I just reread a poem I wrote awhile ago about my dad and hot tears ran from my eyes and down my cheeks. There were years at a younger age I didn’t think I’d miss my old man, but callow youth makes way after awhile to a more forgiving humanity as experience and humility take…… Continue reading Our Father
Are Women more Emotionally Driven?
A juicy question that deserves more than the subjective answer I’m going to give. Yet I think it is valuable to consider the subjective truth from an individual’s viewpoint. It is the only direct knowledge I have on the subject 🙂 I’ve always been a fairly logical person. In making decisions I’m not overly swayed…… Continue reading Are Women more Emotionally Driven?
Reflections on four years full time
I’d like to starts with the hard stuff so I leave you with some more positive messages. As these years have gone by it has become more and more apparent how deep my losses have been. Not everyone’s go this deep and some go deeper. I’ve seen outright rejection, usually in a non-confrontational way. I’ve…… Continue reading Reflections on four years full time
Mourning Music
For as long as I can remember I’ve made music. It started with clarinet in grammar school, piano in high school, guitar in college and somewhere along the line my voice became good enough to listen to. Other than clarinet I was self taught, and therefore my musical education was spotty in places but it…… Continue reading Mourning Music
Scare
I spent much of the last week in a terribly depressed state, nearly suicidal at times. I was also puzzled as well as being in psychic pain as my depression had been in good control. Not to say I was always cheerful, but I was able to function well. Suddenly I wasn’t and I was…… Continue reading Scare
It’s not quite there
I had to think awhile before writing this. I didn’t want it to be about the event that inspired it, especially since that experience wasn’t unique. It is part of an ongoing pattern that really hurts me deeply and I imagine other trans people too. We’ve made good progress in this world. There’s a good…… Continue reading It’s not quite there
What’s so bad about being transgender
The original version of this was written for Quora, this is expanded and somewhat rewritten. Once you’ve transitioned and pass well much of these issues go away but for awhile people you interact with will know you’re transgender and that will be everyone for some period of time. They fall into several categories and almost…… Continue reading What’s so bad about being transgender
My Gifted Life 