I’ve had a long standing pain issue with dilation. It started pretty early. I had great optimism that second week when I started because it was painless but pretty soon that changed. I’ve grown to understand that my key issue has been scarring and a fissure. The scarring formed a band around the vaginal opening…… Continue reading SRS dilation followup
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SRS Diary 7/22/16
Note to people who don’t want to hear about surgery, vaginas, scar tissue, dilators, etc. Please go look elsewhere. This will be TMI, you have been warned. First, a little retrospective. I had surgery to feel more aligned and comfortable with my body. Safety in public situations was there and has unfortunately felt even more…… Continue reading SRS Diary 7/22/16
SRS going on nine months
Not exactly nine, more than eight, less than nine. It’s been four months or so since I’ve written anything about the surgery and the results. Truthfully things are not enormously changed, there are issues I’m dealing with, but they are very few. A few weeks ago I was finally able to ditch the liners. This…… Continue reading SRS going on nine months
SRS Update
It’s going on four months and perhaps not amazingly there are still slow changes happening to the lady garden. One of the interesting things is just mental. I examine myself before each dilation to see what is going on and recently caught myself just looking and smiling. Guess it really was the right thing to…… Continue reading SRS Update
Six and a half weeks
It hasn’t been long since surgery, but six and going on seven weeks have seen huge changes. Healing of course, the swelling going down, sensation returning at a slow pace, the quelling of over sensitivity. At this point the only pain I feel is working the current largest dilator into place. Perhaps I need to…… Continue reading Six and a half weeks
And now what?
I participate in a forum for transgender, transsexual people. It is populated by lovely and giving people. Early on I received a great deal of support; now I need a little less and I try to supply what I can. One of the issues that gets talked about is post-op depression. There’s a huge investment…… Continue reading And now what?
Keeping a sense of humor
I had to make an appointment with a gynecologist. It was unsurprisingly my first that wasn’t just to talk to her before surgery so the first real appointment wouldn’t be too strange (where are the smiley faces when I want one!). I’ve been to a lot of doctors and there are many awkward positions available.…… Continue reading Keeping a sense of humor
The Whys of SRS
Why get confirmation surgery at all? I’ve written before about people who insist that getting surgery is some requirement for being “serious” about being a woman (or a man I suppose for the FtM community). My negative feelings about those folks haven’t moderated, no person, regardless of intent has a right to put such a…… Continue reading The Whys of SRS
Three weeks post op
This is likely the last post solely about my surgery, truthfully there are many details that are inappropriate to share either because of my privacy and modesty, or a desire to not publish uncomfortable descriptions. For those who want the anatomical, medical view of this topic I suggest doing searches on PubMed and YouTube has…… Continue reading Three weeks post op
Reimagined
Longtime hid behind the mask Imagined strips of clay Hiding self and glory dim Waiting for the day Sleep awhile and wake with morn Marvels wait within Sleepy eyes behold new hope Rising without sin Dance around the fairy ring Contra creed and faith Till the magic portal makes A passage to new grace Emerge…… Continue reading Reimagined
My Gifted Life 