The years have past like stately trees Along the moonlit drive Each one brought new joys and fears and sometimes also cries The last ones now have seen the best and the worst of all The journey took from A to Z and trying not to fall The magic day, the dawn so bright it…… Continue reading Reawakening
Category: Transition
The End of Transition
The day comes at last when you realize that it has been months since you’ve needed to really think about living as you now are. The glamour has worn off, the new has become the mundane. This is not to say that life is not so much better, it most certainly is because you no…… Continue reading The End of Transition
SRS
Variously known as sex reassignment surgery, gender confirmation surgery and (to my mind) erroneously as gender reassignment surgery, the surgery to transform one’s genitalia from male to female or vice versus is often the holy grail sought by the transsexual transitioner. There are many gatekeepers to pass to reach that place: If nothing else, it…… Continue reading SRS
Flowering
Long time the seed is nurtured there, Beneath the soil with hope and care. Watered well and planted right, It waits the day to seek the light The seasons change, the seasons turn, Ages change a love that yearns, To hold again a loved one near, Remembering the warmer years At last the sun is…… Continue reading Flowering
Why a Little is at least Sometimes not enough
You start down the path beset by shame, guilt and maybe even a little anger and resentment. You’re fighting various demons and figuring out not just the gender stuff but teasing it apart from sexual orientation issues. Then the cloud starts to lift a bit. You get introduced to this vision of what life can…… Continue reading Why a Little is at least Sometimes not enough
Judge Not
I remember well the time and place. It was the fall before I went full time. I had started taking hormones and was spending more and more time in female mode, but if I’m recalling correctly I gave in to a request from my spouse to not just show up as Rachel. I would show…… Continue reading Judge Not
Leaping Tall Obstacles in a Single Bound
No, we aren’t superman or superwoman, but reading this article can give you a sense of how truly difficult the journey is from awareness to the end of physical transition, a place I’m fast approaching. I realized, as I answered the friend who wrote me about the article, that I should write about that journey, that…… Continue reading Leaping Tall Obstacles in a Single Bound
Defining yourself
What does it mean to become a women. I wrote at length about being a real woman, but that was mostly talking about biology. There’s much more to being a woman than biology, at least more to the female gender than biological sex. When someone transitions from male to female, the first stop might be…… Continue reading Defining yourself
Fantasy meet reality
In my prior post I talked about how I spent the year before I came out obsessing over transitioning. There was really no question what my heart wanted, but things are rarely so simple. Life in middle age is complex, I had a spouse, a dependent child in college, a job where I wasn’t sure…… Continue reading Fantasy meet reality
Forgiveness
It’s a story about me, about my journey and some friends who’ve followed and know me personally will know what this is about. But it isn’t about the person I’m forgiving, and it echos our rabbi’s sermon in some interesting ways. Along my road I decided that I needed to start understanding how I was…… Continue reading Forgiveness
My Gifted Life 