Just now when I thought things were basically over, I’ve had another rude awakening. Perhaps it was just about my personality. I can’t take all the info out of this post – those who know me personally in the Jewish community will know where I attend and other details, but I’ll leave those out of…… Continue reading Do People Ever forgive and forget
Less and Less
Doubtless you’ve noticed I post less in this blog than I used to. There’s a fine reason for that, I’m well beyond transition and I just live my life these days. None of the formerly new things are new anymore. Going to the ladies room? was it ever any other way it feels like to…… Continue reading Less and Less
Made in Love
She who shall not be named Made us all in love With no expectations Save to be good to one another Kind words Good deeds These above all else are valued There are those who focus on the form But lose the meaning Better to be the shepherd playing the flute Than the tzadick who’s…… Continue reading Made in Love
Embodiment
I was sitting on the couch earlier and was feeling quite content. Everything is fitting together, all the parts of my body are there, and it is nice to be shaped the right way. Perfect? Of course not. I should lose forty pounds 🙂 But the vessel I now inhabit feels right for the soul…… Continue reading Embodiment
Trans what?
It really is true, that day by day you live your truth and you and it slowly intertwine. The space grows ever closer until one morning you wake up and find that there’s only you. No other, no seeming division. When I started my journey it would sometimes feel like I had this person Rachel…… Continue reading Trans what?
On Cis Dating and the Golden Rule
Let’s distinguish two things. It is not, in my opinion, transphobic to not wish to date someone for any personal reason. It might be something as simple, for a male, as wanting natural children and seeing no point in dating someone who cant bear a child. I wouldn’t hold it against them. Refusing to acknowledge…… Continue reading On Cis Dating and the Golden Rule
Bio Sex and Reality
Drives me really nuts. There are all these people who ask these questions that include the terms biological female or male as if it were a real thing. I thought I’d get it off my mind along with some information about genes and get to sleep. As an added plus I can cut and paste…… Continue reading Bio Sex and Reality
The Earliest memories of a trans kid
I have dated my earliest memories for the longest time to age six. But I was thinking about it the other day and I realized I had these earlier memories. I was three or so and with my mom shopping in downtown Ossining, NY. We were at Hilliker’s, a small department store on Main St.…… Continue reading The Earliest memories of a trans kid
Vulnerability of a pronoun
(Modified from a Quora answer) I don’t get offended when people accidentally screw up pronouns with me. I even had that discussion today with my eye doctor who was apologizing for my last office visit and I told him it really isn’t a big deal. I’ve been his patient for 20 years and he still…… Continue reading Vulnerability of a pronoun
Rooted
Built of steel, built of stone Castle deep, floating home There to stay, there to roam A passing shadow glances Fastened to a steel bound chair She rules her world with fits and stares At the rosebuds in your hair And wonders where they came from Then she rises rod in hand Marches to an…… Continue reading Rooted
My Gifted Life 