The past is behind us all ground into dust The future ahead not knowing we trust We travel alone or with friends that we find That same dusty byway deep in our minds Live in the past, your companion is rust, It sours your joy, mouth full of sawdust, You walk hand in hand with…… Continue reading Trails
Changing Masks
When we first transition we challenge our friends, acquaintances, coworkers, and families to now see us differently. We ask that they call us by a different name, consider us as another gender; a gender we may long have felt internally, but not one they saw before their eyes. I’ve mentioned before that for some of…… Continue reading Changing Masks
Bringing Understanding
There are many in our lives and our communities who don’t or think they don’t like us. Some of that is based on what their religion preaches, some because of what they see on TV and some based on ignorance and rumor. If someone is convinced of their view, just walk away. It really is…… Continue reading Bringing Understanding
Singing
There are subjects that I have experiences to share. More rarely I have something resembling knowledge to impart, although that might be the short sightedness of one new to this stage. After all, I thought I knew how to get dressed properly two years ago and now I laugh about it. What will I think…… Continue reading Singing
SRS Update
It’s going on four months and perhaps not amazingly there are still slow changes happening to the lady garden. One of the interesting things is just mental. I examine myself before each dilation to see what is going on and recently caught myself just looking and smiling. Guess it really was the right thing to…… Continue reading SRS Update
Finding Happiness in Transition
In the world I’ve peered into of trans women there are different kinds of people with different kinds of goals. Remember that most all of these people have an identity of female or female”ish” for their gender with a male body to start with. Some are not to be content with anything short of not…… Continue reading Finding Happiness in Transition
Surprises
In just a couple of weeks I will have been full time for two full years, and these are some reflections on some of the things that have been different from what I might have expected. We all enter into this with ideas, but how does reality wear them down? Men I speak not of…… Continue reading Surprises
In Zion
She sat by the stream And played the Lyre, Dreaming of Zion of Jerusalem Golden on a hill Shining, calling to all Come and live in my light But she was in shadow In twilight as the music softly told a story low in the dark she lay alone and the angels showed her a…… Continue reading In Zion
How Many Sticks?
There’s that old saying about the stick that broke the camel’s back. I’m feeling like that these days. The past six years have been exceptionally difficult ones. I’ll review, quite briefly: 2010: My father was dying all that year and finally fell and broke his hip, or broke his hip and fell. We gave him…… Continue reading How Many Sticks?
Earthquake
Slowly It started In the basement Of a tall building At first Just the smallest Cracks appeared In the concrete pillars Then As seconds passed The rumblings grew And the ground shifted Steel Bent like rubber Glass Shattered and fell on the street below In the top Of that building Lay a machine Once pristine…… Continue reading Earthquake
My Gifted Life 