The areas that hurt most transitioners are losses of family, friends, community and employment. As society gets more accepting these tend to be less of a problem, but it would be the rare trans person who is totally unaffected. Here I want to talk about friends. I can only speak from an MtF viewpoint, I’m…… Continue reading Is it them, or Me??
The true cost of SRS
People live through many good and bad times in their lives. If you are trans, signing up for some type of reassignment surgery is just one more of these. No one reading my post should think that deciding to get SRS, preparing for it or moving on afterwards is a world of rainbows and unicorns.…… Continue reading The true cost of SRS
One week
It was one week ago I had my surgery. I’m a little under a week from going home. The surgeon, Dr. Leis, told me I’m healing well and can go home next weekend. I did take a look for Saturday flights, but finally decided having another day to recuperate is no bad thing. I’ve had…… Continue reading One week
Day four
Yesterday I was moved to an hotel room from the hospital. I’m able to sleep without anyone checking to make sure I still have a pulse 😳 My sister and her husband are both being extremely wonderful to me. I had a bit of a panic attack yesterday, one should really expect that adjusting to…… Continue reading Day four
Bang
I came out of surgery 4pm yesterday and went to my room by seven. I didn’t sleep terrifically well, not so much pain as being in a working hospital and the annoyance of a foley in my bladder which ironically makes you feel, like you need to pee all the time. The only time I have…… Continue reading Bang
Tick, tick, tick, tick
It’s 7:30am, I woke at 6am for the morning ritual involving what everyone’s morning ritual is. Adequate sleep, still pretty darn calm, and the countdown timer is marking the hours. 22:30 minutes and counting before they push liquid into my veins and ask me to count down from 100. Why 100? You never get beyond…… Continue reading Tick, tick, tick, tick
Becoming
On the escalator Bag checked Boarding pass in hand Waiting A little boy Dreams of change Magical contraptions Abracadabra Dawning light Body clean Inside, Outside, Ready, set, go! Transforming A young man Wonders what Girls feel How they are Different Order becomes disorder Genesis becomes chaos All is rearranged Until order is Reasserted Father dreams…… Continue reading Becoming
Let me sleep on it
So holy moly, it’s Saturday and I leave for the airport in less than 24 hours. In less than 48 hours I’m being wheeled into surgery and “donor material” starts the transformation into “lady garden”. Wow. I really should be more freaked. Just nervous a bit. I’m putting my energy today into cleaning up. I’ve…… Continue reading Let me sleep on it
Final Countdown
There’s definitely a phenomena that shows up when we are waiting for an event to happen. Time slows as we approach the event, like Zeno’s paradox where you can only split the distance between you and your goal by half each time. You can get very close but never quite arrive. The flip side is…… Continue reading Final Countdown
Preparations
The question comes, “how long have you been planning this” and I think, how do I answer? I have many answers: Well, for three months since I got a date from the surgeon’s office Definitely decided to not hold off once we decided to not remain married It was also something I wanted from the…… Continue reading Preparations
My Gifted Life 