There’s a face that stares Over midnight cares Lines engraved A story of times Of days uncertain Where a pulled back curtain Revealed joys or woes Do you see the callow youth Behind those hard won lines A sage Lost more than won And now hopes to win The dearest heart The fate of all…… Continue reading Vigil
A Real Girl
This is one place I struggled with for years and it was a major roadblock for me. I knew what could and couldn’t be done. I just knew I couldn’t be a real girl because and then I could list some reasons. It almost made me (in my head) like a trans exclusionary radical feminist…… Continue reading A Real Girl
Fantasy meet reality
In my prior post I talked about how I spent the year before I came out obsessing over transitioning. There was really no question what my heart wanted, but things are rarely so simple. Life in middle age is complex, I had a spouse, a dependent child in college, a job where I wasn’t sure…… Continue reading Fantasy meet reality
How I felt coming out
For nearly a year, perhaps it was longer, I became more and more fixated on transitioning. At that point I had never dared identify as trans in public, never said a word about how I felt. I felt that if I dared to say I wanted to be a woman that the world would laugh…… Continue reading How I felt coming out
Los Angeles
The last of my poetry backlog, I may slow down a bit (or not) The Angels look from high above And send the sunlight bright and clear Summer Heat and busy streets And lanes to cross before I sleep Far from conflict, free from care Heartfelt talks, friendly fare Time to heal and charge the…… Continue reading Los Angeles
The way back
We find ourselves we know not where In a forest dark and drear And yet the distant star draws near and pulls us toward the lady fair with even locks of fine gold hair that beckon us to move quite near and smell the lavender that grows in the clearing around her The starlight shines…… Continue reading The way back
The Struggle of Loved Ones
No matter what’s going on with an individual with a problem, it isn’t only that person who’s affected. The people near and dear to them are impacted in all sorts of different ways. Routines disrupted, expectations changes, sometimes the end of a relationship or the grief that comes with the end of a life and…… Continue reading The Struggle of Loved Ones
Buying Appropriate Clothing
There’s an epidemic among many members of the trans community. Among transwomen of a certain age, there’s this pineing for that which we missed: youth, svelteness, and the things that go with that. Some of us try to recapture that with clothing that is a little (or a lot) inappropriate for our age. It’s often…… Continue reading Buying Appropriate Clothing
Autumn
Daylight comes in smaller pieces Frosty mornings harvest time Apple cider from the presses Autumn time Again Around a sunny orchard screams Tiny children running round Gather apples while ye may Summer’s winding down Hayrides Gray clouds gather, wet the weather Musty smells of earth and leaf Brilliant flowers of the maples Make us bowers…… Continue reading Autumn
The Light
The glow of her laughter The light of her smile The sound of her after The footsteps pass by She travels the lowlands She travels the plains She travels the highlands To them all the same Do you see her in Springtime In your young lovers eyes? In the passing of Winter and the old…… Continue reading The Light
My Gifted Life 