When I started on my journey I would hear the term “True Self” with derision. After all, I was who I was and I might change but my core would stay the same, right? Then months went past and the persona I had as a man was clearer to me. It was clear that was…… Continue reading Look not to others
Tag: Acceptance
Another Petal Falls
The call was made a few days ago after some days of procrastination. It wasn’t that I dreaded it, but first I had been ill and then I was still getting over it, but at last I needed to make the call. I couldn’t stand my mobile phone staring at me with an accusing glow…… Continue reading Another Petal Falls
Why a Little is at least Sometimes not enough
You start down the path beset by shame, guilt and maybe even a little anger and resentment. You’re fighting various demons and figuring out not just the gender stuff but teasing it apart from sexual orientation issues. Then the cloud starts to lift a bit. You get introduced to this vision of what life can…… Continue reading Why a Little is at least Sometimes not enough
Judge Not
I remember well the time and place. It was the fall before I went full time. I had started taking hormones and was spending more and more time in female mode, but if I’m recalling correctly I gave in to a request from my spouse to not just show up as Rachel. I would show…… Continue reading Judge Not
Defining yourself
What does it mean to become a women. I wrote at length about being a real woman, but that was mostly talking about biology. There’s much more to being a woman than biology, at least more to the female gender than biological sex. When someone transitions from male to female, the first stop might be…… Continue reading Defining yourself
A Real Girl
This is one place I struggled with for years and it was a major roadblock for me. I knew what could and couldn’t be done. I just knew I couldn’t be a real girl because and then I could list some reasons. It almost made me (in my head) like a trans exclusionary radical feminist…… Continue reading A Real Girl
My Gifted Life 