With September came the falling away of those last doubts and fears. Testosterone had lost its seductive libidinous power over me. Getting into the endocrinologist at first was driving me to despair: No delays is a forlorn hope. The good news was that my regular therapist and I were all on the same page on…… Continue reading Memories from 2013 – Q4
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Memories from 2013 – Q2 & Q3
The following is a few weeks later. Our friend S took me out for some pampering. I’m leaving out the piper’s price, such is life, as protection to guilty and innocent alike. Dear diary, most of today was lovely. My friend S and I went and were made over (you can not quite see it…… Continue reading Memories from 2013 – Q2 & Q3
Memories from 2013 – Q1
As I understand it, it can take awhile for all the receptors to get recharged. I wasn’t surprised that my trans feelings came back with the hormones and the sex drive, and I guess I can honestly say that I missed them since they were part of me. For the last six weeks everything’s been…… Continue reading Memories from 2013 – Q1
Orgasm (SRS)
One of the big questions every one of us has is whether we’re going to be able to orgasm after SRS. It’s a valid question for several reasons, but the principal reason is that your whole area down below is getting entirely rearranged. Most surgeons will tell you, or say on their website, that you…… Continue reading Orgasm (SRS)
The Reawakening of my Life
In 2012 and late 2011 my life devolved into a pit of despair as I went through my final struggles before admitting I had a problem. It is somewhat more of a male thing to hide weakness, one possible reasons, but truthfully it was the guilt and shame that kept my mouth closed. Then too…… Continue reading The Reawakening of my Life
Happy New Year 2017
with only a couple of changes from the post to the NuttyKats forum, an excellent place to be a transsexual. Added comments in parenthesis in italic It has been a great journey through thick and thin. (five years in April 2017) There’s this large group that helped me move through the swamp and miasma that hid…… Continue reading Happy New Year 2017
SRS T+14 months
The narrowing (stenosis) of the vaginal opening is being held at bay by the lovely silicone dilators my gynecologist has given me. I still use one of the solid ones a couple times a week to make sure the depth stays where it is. The silicone dilators (made by Soul Source) are each tapered, which…… Continue reading SRS T+14 months
Female Sexuality
One can make the argument that I can’t know this. However, not only is that mostly likely to be part of an argument that says I’m really a dude in women’s clothing, but continues about the delusional state of trans people. I’m not writing for them, they can go off in their echo chamber and talk…… Continue reading Female Sexuality
Former Friends
It all started with a joke on an email list I’m on of gaming buddies. We used to play dungeons and dragons together in more innocent days and I’ve known some of these men going back to 1984. The joke was political and just set me off, so I sent out a reply that I…… Continue reading Former Friends
November
The winds blew warm, over hopeful fields The stalks still stood, the harvest yields The cider pressed, it steams in cups With cinnamon sticks, we lap it up Against the cold, that comes so fast November winds, they fly so fast From the East, they smell of sea And snow to come, the dark for…… Continue reading November
My Gifted Life 