We are who we remember ourselves to be, and that self narrative can dramatically affect how we live in the present. Viewing our whole life as well spent is like having a set of blocks to start from, our whole life as a waste like watery sand. I do think when someone is suffering there’s…… Continue reading Our Stories
Tag: Changes
Do We Deceive
This is repeated with changes from a post I made to a trans forum. I was happy with the writing and thought it might help those who struggle with having waited all their lives to tell the truth. Edits: Italics are additions and strikethroughs are removals. We deny things to ourselves, we take truths and fold them…… Continue reading Do We Deceive
Secrets
When I was young Much younger than today I dreamed that truth Bursting forth Could ‘ere be put away Part of who I was The deepest part of me Hidden in the deep, dark cell Hidden from the light and air For no one else to see But age it does bring changes More than…… Continue reading Secrets
Letting Go
When we’ve lived a lifetime as someone; with someone. Spent hours in pursuits profound and frivolous. Seen the world through blue glasses that now are rose and handle the world through less steady hands. Well, one simply has to start thinking about what comes along for the ride and what, no longer needed, is left…… Continue reading Letting Go
Changing Masks
When we first transition we challenge our friends, acquaintances, coworkers, and families to now see us differently. We ask that they call us by a different name, consider us as another gender; a gender we may long have felt internally, but not one they saw before their eyes. I’ve mentioned before that for some of…… Continue reading Changing Masks
Singing
There are subjects that I have experiences to share. More rarely I have something resembling knowledge to impart, although that might be the short sightedness of one new to this stage. After all, I thought I knew how to get dressed properly two years ago and now I laugh about it. What will I think…… Continue reading Singing
SRS Update
It’s going on four months and perhaps not amazingly there are still slow changes happening to the lady garden. One of the interesting things is just mental. I examine myself before each dilation to see what is going on and recently caught myself just looking and smiling. Guess it really was the right thing to…… Continue reading SRS Update
Finding Happiness in Transition
In the world I’ve peered into of trans women there are different kinds of people with different kinds of goals. Remember that most all of these people have an identity of female or female”ish” for their gender with a male body to start with. Some are not to be content with anything short of not…… Continue reading Finding Happiness in Transition
Surprises
In just a couple of weeks I will have been full time for two full years, and these are some reflections on some of the things that have been different from what I might have expected. We all enter into this with ideas, but how does reality wear them down? Men I speak not of…… Continue reading Surprises
In Zion
She sat by the stream And played the Lyre, Dreaming of Zion of Jerusalem Golden on a hill Shining, calling to all Come and live in my light But she was in shadow In twilight as the music softly told a story low in the dark she lay alone and the angels showed her a…… Continue reading In Zion
My Gifted Life 