It was about two weeks ago that I turned to my partner and said that my pain was becoming bad and we needed to head down to the ER. Although we don’t keep prepared bags, we both know what to bring when going to the ER. Laptops or handheld tablets, charging cables and adapters and…… Continue reading Catching you all up and Thanks for all the Fish
Tag: Family
Trans what?
It really is true, that day by day you live your truth and you and it slowly intertwine. The space grows ever closer until one morning you wake up and find that there’s only you. No other, no seeming division. When I started my journey it would sometimes feel like I had this person Rachel…… Continue reading Trans what?
Our Father
I just reread a poem I wrote awhile ago about my dad and hot tears ran from my eyes and down my cheeks. There were years at a younger age I didn’t think I’d miss my old man, but callow youth makes way after awhile to a more forgiving humanity as experience and humility take…… Continue reading Our Father
Happiness is a warm brunch
It had been too long. Before this Sunday past (1/14/18) I had last seen my daughter before my SRS, my sister and brother in law right after and my cousin S and his wife B about six years ago. The second cousin R I stayed with and her sister D were probably close to a…… Continue reading Happiness is a warm brunch
Sour Apple Days
I am blessed in many ways. I sit here, warm, fed, and with people in my life that care about me, love me and who would come and help me if I needed it. The last at least in part because I wouldn’t ask for any trivial reason. I am blessed in my transition. Being…… Continue reading Sour Apple Days
My Two Biggest Losses
I don’t think these will be a surprise, and neither could be different either, these are as they need to be. I made a choice to move forward with my life and to become Rachel and even though the other choice wasn’t an affirmative one, it was available, and if I’m entirely truthful I cannot…… Continue reading My Two Biggest Losses
For my Lion
When I’m filled with doubt and fear, My loved ones gather far and near, A soft tune they start to sing, And in my ears it rings To me it makes a loving sound, It starts right there beside the ground, Rumbles through my weary feet, Legs and calfs all still lie neet Then rests…… Continue reading For my Lion
Memories 2015 from October to December
Going through from March of 2014 when I went full time to March of 2015 was a hiatus. Things were good at home, but it was a kind of truce. We both knew that once I was eligible for surgery things could change radically. There wasn’t much question in my mind that I wanted the…… Continue reading Memories 2015 from October to December
More than five years past
There are things that just hit you like a bolt out of the blue. You realize that you’ve a half a decade lost in a miasma of shifting veils learning to be this new and different version of yourself. Was the person before not you and is this a truer you? Is it perhaps just…… Continue reading More than five years past
Loneliness
This is the worst part by far, bereft of many family members and friends and even those closest to me. I’m accepted whe I go to events and certainly that feels good, and more fortunate by far than someone who deals with issues of passing, or worse yet passing were it is dangerous to be…… Continue reading Loneliness
My Gifted Life 