This post isn’t themed, it isn’t educational, it’s just reflective. I’m coming up on three months post op and two years since I went full time. I was walking out of Lahey clinic today where I had what was definitely one too many doctor’s appointments over the last week (although I can’t say enough good…… Continue reading January 26, 2016
Tag: Happiness
Looking Back
Toward the start of my journey I spent an awful lot of time asking why. Why did I feel this compulsion, why couldn’t I just deny it, and why the hell was I so unlucky to have this issue in my life. Part of it was looking forward and asking what was going to be…… Continue reading Looking Back
Phase 3
For the first 54 years I lived as a man and honestly many of those were good years. I did a passable imitation of being a guy, at least a relatively non-aggressive guy. I might have had some odd thoughts but I did enjoy having sex and I was attracted to women. That guy had…… Continue reading Phase 3
Happy New Year
First and foremost may 2016 be a better year for us all. Life involves change and while not all change may be welcome, it will happen anyway. It remains to us whether we embrace change or fight the losing battle for stasis. For me last year was all about change, and change that remains in…… Continue reading Happy New Year
Escaping the Past
My prior incarnation, D, tended to be pretty argumentative. This was at its worse with people who were close to me. My therapist feels I was keeping them at a distance, and honestly, that might be a good explanation. I’d add that my interactions with my father growing up pushed me to defend my positions…… Continue reading Escaping the Past
Christmas and Hair?
I was sitting in a friend’s living room yesterday. She and her daughter welcomed me into their beautiful apartment having saved me from spending Christmas alone. Even though I’m Jewish, Christmas has been important in my life for more than thirty years. For a variety of not very mysterious reasons I’m not welcome with my…… Continue reading Christmas and Hair?
Ascent
Last mountain climbed Long years past by As she gazed with aged eye The aerie where her hopes do lie And all the world to save Burdens laid aside at last Her back like an arrow cast Aimed at new beast to slay She waits at the end of day Beneath the sunset sky No…… Continue reading Ascent
Reimagined
Longtime hid behind the mask Imagined strips of clay Hiding self and glory dim Waiting for the day Sleep awhile and wake with morn Marvels wait within Sleepy eyes behold new hope Rising without sin Dance around the fairy ring Contra creed and faith Till the magic portal makes A passage to new grace Emerge…… Continue reading Reimagined
Two weeks
Well, two weeks is actually tomorrow morning, but I figured this was close enough. I had my last checkup with Dr. Leis last night and was told I’m healing up well. There are some extremely minor issues that will resolve themselves over time, nothing terribly annoying. Lacking some sin of omission or commission on my…… Continue reading Two weeks
Happiness
What does it mean to be happy? Can you bottle and sell happiness or is it ephemeral, observable or invisible, measurable or not? Is there a sure recipe to find it and if there were, why are there so many unhappy people in the world? I sure don’t know the recipe. They say money doesn’t…… Continue reading Happiness
My Gifted Life 