I think I underestimate how corrosive even a single source of stress can be. I know I underestimated how positive finding an activity would be. My stressors were reduced by one – my disability was approved. This was a huge relief, and I finally let out the breath I had been holding in for months.…… Continue reading Happier days
Tag: Hope
Living with Depression
Most days I do fairly well and I manage to stay reasonably motivated and even legitimately cheerful. I don’t struggle to work, to concentrate or with insomnia. Most days. I’m like a lot of people with clinical depression who are being successfully treated with medication and who have tried to remove stress and conflict from…… Continue reading Living with Depression
Parents your children need you
I made the mistake of watching a piece of Dr Phil on You Tube about a trans teen and her mom. Irritating to say the least. Where do they find these people. However, I do know that the drama I saw plays out all the time. This is in two parts. First to the parents,…… Continue reading Parents your children need you
Illusion
We hide behind mirrors, masks and walls, We hide what is pretty, we hide all our flaws, We pull some parts in, we build some parts out Tis all an illusion there can be no doubt The flower in springtime sits there on the hill It’s sisters around it in vast array will Draw bees…… Continue reading Illusion
I am to my love as my love is to me*
We met again on Winter’s day colder by far than month of May bold colors gone petals astray frosty words grew heavy From where came you? I ask of her Farther than yon North starts there Beyond twelve rivers I crossed them fair With all bold angels waiting To where had you gone she asked…… Continue reading I am to my love as my love is to me*
Self Acceptance, Loss and Validation
What is your goal? This is an important question and I will claim that your happiness depends on your goal. I’ve heard it said that you cannot depend on others for your happiness and I have found that to be more than a little bit true. Yet this missive is not about happiness per se,…… Continue reading Self Acceptance, Loss and Validation
Life Lessons about Transition
It’s been almost three years since I started HRT. It is about three years to the day when I returned from Province town and decided that I could transition. Province town had been the experiment in living full time. Starting with my return I came off the small dose of testosterone I was still on…… Continue reading Life Lessons about Transition
Tiny Face
A half moon Looks up In delight at the sky Whispers words Looking out Over an August sea The rain falls It runs in rivers Cords flow over asphalt She laughs in delight Small face Against the glass Second summer Near the ground Beautiful sounds Only she can hear Beams like iron Bake the tar…… Continue reading Tiny Face
On being happy
I would have to say that this is really not a trans subject. This is a paean to the blessings of a good life, and the joy of choosing attainable goals. I only describe my vision of a happy life. Yours may be different. Mine won’t look like this in ten years or maybe it…… Continue reading On being happy
The Elysium Fields
First of two coupled poems The young children sit At the feet of the sage Drink in the wisdom The wisdom of age The gifted are held With soft loving hands Their prophesies heard Lend meaning to plans The young men they dance The young women to They care not who couples With whom and…… Continue reading The Elysium Fields
My Gifted Life 