The following is a few weeks later. Our friend S took me out for some pampering. I’m leaving out the piper’s price, such is life, as protection to guilty and innocent alike. Dear diary, most of today was lovely. My friend S and I went and were made over (you can not quite see it…… Continue reading Memories from 2013 – Q2 & Q3
Tag: Relationships
Memories from 2013 – Q1
As I understand it, it can take awhile for all the receptors to get recharged. I wasn’t surprised that my trans feelings came back with the hormones and the sex drive, and I guess I can honestly say that I missed them since they were part of me. For the last six weeks everything’s been…… Continue reading Memories from 2013 – Q1
The Reawakening of my Life
In 2012 and late 2011 my life devolved into a pit of despair as I went through my final struggles before admitting I had a problem. It is somewhat more of a male thing to hide weakness, one possible reasons, but truthfully it was the guilt and shame that kept my mouth closed. Then too…… Continue reading The Reawakening of my Life
Fear and Doubt
Most of the time I manage pretty well, stay calm and collected, and provide what I hope is decent advice to you, who are going through this, and those close to you who seek to understand your pain and anguish. All the while dealing with their own pain and heartache. Never lose track of that.…… Continue reading Fear and Doubt
To those we love and love us
There are different degrees of intimacy in one’s life. Broadly there’s family, friends and community. When we identify ourselves as trans there is an impact on all these people, greater the closer they are to us. Acceptance has little to do with politics or religion, at least in our close circles. Such has been my…… Continue reading To those we love and love us
Cellophane
Those of us who have transitioned and seen life “from both sides now” as Joni Mitchell famously sang know a truth hidden from most. Men and women live separate worlds separated by cellophane. A few thousandth of an inch a part. We think we hear each other but so often do not. If you are…… Continue reading Cellophane
Former Friends
It all started with a joke on an email list I’m on of gaming buddies. We used to play dungeons and dragons together in more innocent days and I’ve known some of these men going back to 1984. The joke was political and just set me off, so I sent out a reply that I…… Continue reading Former Friends
The Holidays
This time of the year that brings thoughts of home and hearth, peace and joy can be especially trying for those living by themselves, isolated. There are a lot of reasons this happens, for trans people because people and family have turned away, but it also happens if you outlive your friends and contemporary family…… Continue reading The Holidays
Illusion
We hide behind mirrors, masks and walls, We hide what is pretty, we hide all our flaws, We pull some parts in, we build some parts out Tis all an illusion there can be no doubt The flower in springtime sits there on the hill It’s sisters around it in vast array will Draw bees…… Continue reading Illusion
A Lesbian, not a man
We’ve probably all heard the quip, but if you haven’t, the group whit responds to hearing about a transwoman being a lesbian with “I guess I’ve always been a lesbian too”, or perhaps more dismissively something like “Well he’s just a man then, men like women”. Aside from the fact that not all men want…… Continue reading A Lesbian, not a man
My Gifted Life 