(Gosh I can’t count. Part four) As summer approached things kept moving along. I found that in order to feel better I needed to spend more and more time as Rachel. Going to work in male mode felt more and more burdensome. I was out to some close friends and started to be able to do…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 4)
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The road to HRT (part 3)
Now all this time I was incredibly conflicted. I wanted to have HRT and transition, but I wanted my family and the two weren’t so compatible. In addition, as a couple we went through some awful times as she struggled. I remember when I first realized I was playing with fire by trying to contain…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 3)
The road to HRT (part 2)
As things we not getting solved with art and music, as well as some journaling and whatever else I could think of that would ease things without making any changes, it was time to start the train back up. The next stop was to try cross dressing at home. This was a little tricky since…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 2)
The road to HRT (part 1)
At the beginning of this journey in April 2012 I came out to my rabbi and wife. After some initial therapy with a general therapist my doctor wanted me to see a psycho sexual therapist, i.e. someone who would be comfortable and competent at assessing me. About six weeks after I came out, and probably…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 1)
SRS Followup
SRS can have a range of complications, although most of the common ones are fairly minor issues. There are a few complications that people justifiably are scared of because they can make your life anything from a short term misery to something long lasting. A lot of us end up with one or more incisions…… Continue reading SRS Followup
SRS Redux and Update 9/23/16
Don’t read this if you don’t like medical stuff and descriptions of surgical procedures, healing situations, etc. You’ve been warned. First a bit of a redux since at this point I’m about seven weeks shy of a year. I had my reassignment surgery and breast augmentation done by Dr. Sherman Leis in Philadelphia. My results…… Continue reading SRS Redux and Update 9/23/16
Truth Stranger than Fiction?
I just returned from a short vacation. The first vacation I’ve taken since I went on medical leave last fall to have SRS on November 9th and from which I return to part time work at the beginning of 2016 and full time work only at the start of March. I truly struggled with what…… Continue reading Truth Stranger than Fiction?
Being Me 9/9/16
I’ve dated this because, it will become dated. I continue to take stock as things change, as I change as the people around me change, as my relationships change. Life is change, it stops when we die, and not before. I’ve spoken before about what transition is, and I emphasized the mental. I was right…… Continue reading Being Me 9/9/16
The Ladies Room
An advantage of having passed some milestones is having also reached a point where I can take a different attitude about talking about using bathrooms. A little more informative, a little less paranoid. I obviously don’t need to instruct other women on using the ladies room, so I’m clearly aiming this at my fellow MtF…… Continue reading The Ladies Room
Self Acceptance, Loss and Validation
What is your goal? This is an important question and I will claim that your happiness depends on your goal. I’ve heard it said that you cannot depend on others for your happiness and I have found that to be more than a little bit true. Yet this missive is not about happiness per se,…… Continue reading Self Acceptance, Loss and Validation
My Gifted Life 