Memories from 2014 – Q1

At this point I was four months into HRT. I had stopped getting sirred by anyone but there were still a few people giving me hard stares. Usually  not while I was looking, my wife would tell me about my getting a double take. Me in December 2013: In January we finished a couple of…… Continue reading Memories from 2014 – Q1

Memories from 2013 – Q4

With September came the falling away of those last doubts and fears. Testosterone had lost its seductive libidinous power over me. Getting into the endocrinologist at first was driving me to despair: No delays is a forlorn hope. The good news was that my regular therapist and I were all on the same page on…… Continue reading Memories from 2013 – Q4

Advice on Coming Out

I’ve been doing this for a while. All I’ve concluded is that there is no one right way, but there are plenty of mistakes you can make. Here are some  don’ts and do’s. Don’t assume the reaction you get is genuine. People are mostly going to tell you what you want to hear, and that’s true…… Continue reading Advice on Coming Out

Memories from 2012

I thought it might be helpful to review some of the process over the last five years. I’m going to include representative posts and some of the better responses I received. For privacy reasons I’ll remove any names. End of June 2012 I find myself in this ungendered state. I was talking to our rabbi…… Continue reading Memories from 2012

Trans children, what’s the correct course?

There was recently aired a BBC program on the debates around properly treating trans kids. I’ve read reviews, but the program itself can’t be seen outside the UK. However, we can talk about the subject without getting too deep into a program. On the one side is the thought that a gender dysphoric kid should…… Continue reading Trans children, what’s the correct course?

The Reawakening of my Life

In 2012 and late 2011 my life devolved into a pit of despair as I went through my final struggles before admitting I had a problem. It is somewhat more of a male thing to hide weakness, one possible reasons, but truthfully it was the guilt and shame that kept my mouth closed. Then too…… Continue reading The Reawakening of my Life

Female Sexuality

One can make the argument that I can’t know this. However, not only is that mostly likely to be part of an argument that says I’m really a dude in women’s clothing, but continues about the delusional state of trans people. I’m not writing for them, they can go off in their echo chamber and talk…… Continue reading Female Sexuality

Remembering…

We, each of us, have a story that tells how we become who we are as adults and as the people we are today. These are some of my signposts. Some are subtle, but most are not even close. As I transitioned I lived my life again. I recalled times, thoughts and events from twenty,…… Continue reading Remembering…

To those we love and love us

There are different degrees of intimacy in one’s life. Broadly there’s family, friends and community. When we identify ourselves as trans there is an impact on all these people, greater the closer they are to us. Acceptance has little to do with politics or religion, at least in our close circles. Such has been my…… Continue reading To those we love and love us

The road to HRT (part 4)

(Gosh I can’t count. Part four) As summer approached things kept moving along. I found that in order to feel better I needed to spend more and more time as Rachel. Going to work in male mode felt more and more burdensome. I was out to some close friends and started to be able to do…… Continue reading The road to HRT (part 4)