My Gifted Life

I kept hoping—and hoping that my vagina would turn a corner and start expanding. I’ve been dilating even now, five years after my surgery on a daily basis. All in the hope to get it large enough to accommodate those things one should accommodate.

I measured the depth this morning. Not even up to the first dot on the dilation rod at 4″, let’s be generous and call it 3 ” and just basically useless. Also, bear in mind that these shafts are tapered and the one I’m reporting on starts just a bit bigger than my thumb.

2 years ago a pelvic exam was no problem. 1 year ago my gyn had to push hard. Yesterday when I was checked out for my current yeast infection it hurt. Not only too short but too narrow despite trying to really push and undergoing tear jerking pain.

My choices are few. I could give up the fight entirely and with it any chance of dating men or I can have surgery to reopen the closed canal. Both options suck big time.

Surgery brings with it another recuperation period and probably a waiting time before I can get the surgery as well.

Not the only problem I’m having down there but it’s certainly a big one.